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Saturday, August 26, 2006
{ 10:41 AM on '' } went school at 9 plus today.. for art.. had my arm bandaged. stupid shit. poor carol and nic.. having exams and poor jasmine. cus i have to ton with them.. -.- zZzz.. stupid carol.. haha ton ton talk with me then in the end.. both fall asleep.. i'm kinda dead now.. perhaps.. child play had turn real again. gosh.. will i be able to face it.. is another thing totally.. woO.. wish me luck.. a song for your.. until i get over you.. Woke up today thinking of you Another night that I made my way through So many dreams still left in my mind But they can never come true I press rewind and remember whenI close my eyes and I'm with you again But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name [Chorus] The sun won't shine since you went away Seems like the rain's falling every day There's just one heart, where there once was two But that's the way it's gotta be,'til I get over you Verse 2] Walked through the park, in the evening airI heard a voice and I thought you were thereI run away but I just can't escape Memories of you everywhere They say that time will dry the tears But true love burns for a thousand years Give my tomorrows for one yesterday Just to know that I could have you here Bridge] When will this river of tears stop fallin 'Where can I run so I won't feel alone Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'I've just gotta take it from here on my own But it's so hard to let go - i guess, it just so hard to let go- Thursday, August 24, 2006
{ 8:15 AM on '' } goona update now.. another long entry i guess.. couldn't exactly remember what happened over the week.. i guess i am just too busy.. over what? I also dunno.. last sunday went to the farewell party held up for RACHEL.. she going Melbourne for further studies.. ok.. she went already.. Yesterday.. guess what.. i miss her already.. we had this mini concert whereby we were surpose to sing or dance. haha.. carol did pole dancing lor. the funny type lars.. Rachel laughed till she tear. i guess my duet with nic was the like.. highlight. hahas but somehow i persuaded NO i THREATEN carol to sing with us. in the end we sang not only ONE but a couple of song.. well.. at the end of it.. carol and rachel hugged.. cried.. scream.. and i just stood there.. stone again.. well.. without rach, singing would be boring .. couldn't send her off yesterday. had English oral and school. sads.. i am so super duper touched. cause carol said rachel made a card for me and so.. when she show it to me over webcam. gosh/ wad can i say men.. Lots of efforts for making that. goona miss her real hard.. school is like.kinda slack today. had art. chem was fighting time with dine dine.. maths was total slacking. chinese we had english under mrs loh. brainstorming and stuff. then last 2 periods we had a small mini discussion on the teacher's day tingz.. having a headache again.. lazy to type lar.. lols.. i wonder if child's play will turn real. Wednesday, August 16, 2006
{ 9:54 AM on '' } today is a day whn people gets sick of life and feels hunger. let me tell your the disadvantage and ADV of being single. advantages : i no longer needs to wait. for the past two years, everyday, every weekend or public holidays. i will be wondering if i am going out with him. well.. the feeling of that sucks. as in.. the waiting feeling.. you wont know if u will end up alone or not. now that i am FREE from that feeling, it's more than GREAT . disadvantages : you talks to guys and their girlfriend will get jealous. people thinks you are a bitch cause you hang out with guys. some people are just sick in their mind. too much free time to invade people's doing. well i guess this weather has made me feel too emo. a lil' agressive i think. i suddenly got the urge to finish my painting asap. suddenly, i'm in love in colouring. someone please tell me i'm mad.. broke my promise about going to watch talenttime. skipped high progamme too. just having this spliting headache. why must talenttime be in the studio instead of the usual hall.. made me like.. broke my promise once again. how i begin to feel. i really cannot be trusted . hais. dig in my insecurities and you'll understand why im behaving the way i do. BUT .whatever it is, ive blewn my past away... Tuesday, August 15, 2006
{ 11:47 AM on '' } the busting noises. the insecurities. my weekend was spend with my family. i'm such a mummy's girl. turned out that sat didnt go and watch fireworks with kc and geramine. well girls. so sorry about it. sat went to pay respect to ancestors.. everyone went.. didnt know who to greet 1st. haha.. so i just said hi. got bullied by jason kor. hahas. after praying and stuff, went seprate ways. but all headed the same place.. met up at 4th uncles house around evening. before that went shopping for gocery with Mum and sis. it was drizzing when we got there. spoil my plan of swimming.. shucks.. was given the mission impossible. to feed my lil' cousin. haha and she finished the whole bowl in half an hour. my uncle was amazed by my power. hahas.. i told her about my goldfish. saying i was sad haha.. a 3 year old kid actually listens. and she mumbled somthing like.. jasmine jie jie. don't cry i ask mummy buy one for you ok.. haha.. and there she goes eating every mouthful i fed. love her lots. skipped tution yesterday. went out with sis and mum and dad. came home and slacked the whole day. finish watching my "ai qing mo fa shi" got so crazy over richie. to the point that nic say i am beyond hope. o yeah.. carol just told me something like damn horrible for me.. will tell your about it again.. i just realise today that. the number of people reading this blog. is rapidly increasing.. well.. i hope u are my friend. if not just f off this blog. dont invade.. hahas wow i sounded so fierce. people are asking me alot these days. i just want to fly up high with the fireworks. Saturday, August 12, 2006
{ 11:00 AM on '' }  duno why.. these days like to draw this type of ugly women of just eyes with tears.. today had been a day full of miracle. other then physic test which i think i am so dead. pe was laughing session again. cause we played soccer again.. sat next to horen in hall . and we actually spoke.. hahas.. it has been awhile since we last spoke in school i think.. then came a surpise to me. release of Chinese results. well.. i thought I felt numbed already. as in I guess I have alreadly mentally prepared myself to get a B3. BUT guess what.. I FINALLY got an A .. woot.. although its just a 2.. but i guess i am more then happy already. in a state of shock when mr koh congratulated me. then a series of people came and spoke to me. but my mind was.. yah.. duno where. too shocked i think. i only remembered blurly that mdm zaibon shake my hand, and mr das actually came to me.. like WOW.. hahas i think he asked how much i got. then i said 2. then he goes.. doing his funny actions. then say yes or wadeva..i cant remember. hugged xiang ling.. like.. we finally lars.. jo cried.. i was like telling dine.. dine please don't cry. i knew I will cry with her if she cry. I know she's disappointed. just feeling numbed.. TO DIne don't be sad kkays. put your focus on other subjects. i knew u can do it!! Smile =) then after school stayed in class awhile. then went lunching with ernest and mark. we talked about food.. and all those dumb and silly stuff that we did before. haha.. it was sure funny.. another funny and strange thing is.. leslie. funny .. he came talking to me in msn.. not his usual way of talking. or perhaps.. its has been too long since we last talk like that till I find.. it's so strange.. I guess I am super tired and lazy today.. something is just missing in my life.. Friday, August 11, 2006
{ 7:28 AM on '' } jamming on friday was ok. sound was horrible.mike got problem. cheryl went too.. did'nt speak much to her too.. yah.. abit awakard cus ed was there so.. yah.. lols tried drumming. i'm like a spastic kid trying to play drums horen keep saying he's better well.. he had got more practice den me. unfair. went to meet germaine later.. the four guys accompained me till she came.. o yah.. me n maine prank KC.. lols.. that girl is a sotong cans.. yesterday went NDP 2006. last min sis says she got tickets for me.. hmm. firework was great. think i am hooked to watching The Magicians of Love. hahas.. show ur some pics bahs.. although blogger cant put much.. i'm lazy.. to type.. jamming. 
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
{ 7:20 AM on '' } school rocks today. wore red to school. then mr das class was so fun haha. we sang. lols.. mr das said we were out of mind. guess wad we sang.. hahas.. NATIONAL day song... cool yar.. den dine and i recorded it in our phone and mp3. gosh. so cute cans.. stayed for art. completed my blue period. wooO but still must edit i tink.. came home and watch ai qing mo fa shi.. till now.. the show is like.. freaking nice. and if nothing goes wrong, i'm goona go see horen they all jam later.. yar.. chaos~ Tuesday, August 08, 2006
{ 9:08 AM on '' } ITS my long lost Friend MINDY"S birthday today.. yah happy birthday girl .. time to update about my weekends.. sat nothing much to blog.. went for mock exams.. sucky.. i didn't have to mood.. so i guess i have to bear the consequences from Mr das.. yar.. wanted to play badminton . but courts will fully booked. so yar.. then aunt called to ask me out.. then went TM with aunt and cousin.. then later mum sis uncle came. eat like crazy again. well.. they always push the food to me. arggghhh i'm getting fatter again. O YAH did i mention how people are eating these days? even people of my age are starting to eat healthy. GOSH .. can't take it. well.. my point of view .. WHAT's teenage without snacks right? people like elijah, drinking fruit juice and soya beans people like nic and carol. drinking carrot juice and pure fruit juice. they don't touch single drip of any thing like pepsi. o well.. thinking.. should i start a healthy diet too? burn down some fats of mine. actually it's almost near to impossible. i'm not that type of healthy person. yar.. breaking up with zk helped me lost 2 KGs.. haha jo lost weight too when after she broke up. so i guessed.. if people there.. u wana lose weight? trying being dumped by someone.. haha but.. sads.. 2 kg is coming back.. haha. i have been eating normally again.. my normally means.. alot lars.. lalas.. yar back to my weekend. yesterday was cool ALL THANKS TO CAROL! around late afternoon, decided to chill out somewhere. so called carol, who asked me to go her place. then just when i left house. nic called. so met up with him 1st before going carol's place. then STUPID BRUNCH OF BANANAS . they called.. asked me where i was. then yar told them i with nic on our way. they came up with the STUPID excuses say they going double dating, ask us to come out with our own plan. and not to go carol's place. (come on ppl.. find a better excuse next time) btw, wont let your have the chance anymore. so nic and i . STUCKed. with no where to go. so in the end he said he needs to go home and get his stuff. yar.. so went his place.. ( the start of my cool journey) his house totally rocks.. i swear i won't step out of my house if i were him.. but.. well. different people with different background and stuff.. yar its different i guess.. his room is like my dream room. woO. ok comes the cool part. we went online den found carol online too. so we decided, it's REVENGE time did something so stupid. we bluff them saying we are a couple alreadly. then we stand infront of the webcam "kissing" but the fact is that we were standing close but one infront another behind. one side of us face the webcam another side nic took his phone and took it down. they were SHOCKed. yah.. hahaha. till we send them the video that nic took. which shows that we were only standing close. yar.. *sweet revenge. had a naked talk with nic yesterday. we talked about everything we had in our mind. like his dad and everything. his guitar totally rocks. then while going home,saw his dad, to me he's dad is okay lars.. but well.. hmm wonder if i could do any help. but.. yar.. who am i to help him. awkard situation. at least he knows how i feel now. he's my best budd men. as for school today, managed to escape from art. but got to pay her back tmr. that sucks.. Friday, August 04, 2006
{ 9:09 PM on '' } KHIM CHENG!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !! well.. Decided to change a new skin since so many one of you are complaining.. school was as usual ... PE was laughing period. we girls played street soccer.. how spastic i am.. miss yang didn't come for Chinese today. was so bored after doing english. ma and rainft helped kel win and Ernest to get rid of their injury.. kel had some fort of like internal blue black the bone just pop out lars. gosh. den ernest with a sprain ankle. so all thanks to ernest for his deep heat cream. so me n rainft had fun seeing them in pain.. hahas.. but they actually pinch us.. we were doing good deed lors.. i bet they will feel better now... hahas after school while waiting for english course to start, Elijah and rainft did something horrible.. haha.. shall not say it here. mrs benjermin course was fun as usual. but i did felt abit sleepy then.. yar that's about all.. to be continued... { 12:11 PM on '' } well.. school's tiring lately.. nearly collaspe in class today.. hahas.. well i guess somethings has yet to be solved. seriously i think i don't wana be in it lars.. its difficult to be caught in the middle. its like .. help who also wrong.. so its better to just shut up yar. feeling so latergic lately.. just wana say.. i need to thank my darling GERMAINE so much that day.. she made me feel so damn lot better. how i wish she was a guy.. hahas.. love her lots.. arhh i am lazy .. not goona blog for today continue again.. Tuesday, August 01, 2006
{ 9:00 AM on '' } The past weekend had been a quiet yet confusing one. like.. i somehow cant sort out my thoughts. i don't seems to be able to see the other side of the road that I'm entering. Nicholas picked up that topic again that day. yar.. perhaps he was the right one. but the time was just not right. perhaps i should accept him in my life. but i think i would rather not. i know how much i've hurt him i'm guess all i could say was just sorry. the problem lies entirely on me. he's the guy that i think most girls would want. perhaps to the point that i will feel so insercure. i'm not confident . no longer confident. don't forget. i've just got ditched. i couldn't say i already let go of that past. he's a jerk i know. the day u went away was the song in me when he left me. but now, i have to hear him say this to another girl. like.. wtf .. perhaps i got used to him not being with me anymore. but i cant say i don't love him anymore. i'm not that type of person who could easily drop a past. jasmine just don't falls to that category. i thought i've let go. and perhaps i already did so. but why do i still feel that excruciating pain in me? that's something I hate myself. I guess i fell too deeply this time. seeing him hurt now, i don't feel happy at all. i should feel happy what right? since that guy got back his karma for treating me that way. but.. hell no. no. i'm hurt more seeing him hurt. i rather see him happy i think.. this is such a dilemma. i wonder if he ever feel my hurt. he only cared about how to get that girl. i'm just being unlucky i supposed. he don't even feel the guilt. my heart hurts. aches. i don't know. i'm just afraid the pain is too much for me too bear.. thats all. |
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